- I wanted to write a blog!
- It is the gap between Christmas and new year and I have time on my hands
- I have never really contributed anything to the internet, and want too
I then thought, No. If I want to write about something I have lots to say on, but have never spoken about and could actually help both me and someone else out there, then I should write about my struggles with being gay.
You see, for some being gay is easy but for many others, like myself, it is something they find very difficult to come to terms with. It is an aspect of you that is completely at odds with the values, beliefs and ideals which you have been brought up to aim for. Accepting it means not simply finding a boyfriend, it means completely rewriting the plan for your life that you have been working on and aiming towards since you were a small child. Then of course there is the process of surprising, shocking, upsetting and even disgusting those around you. Those who you love and care for, as you go about the process of coming out.
I am not going to be writing this blog as someone who has been through all of this and is now looking back on their past. This is all still very current and very real. I am out to some friends and not others, I have a boyfriend who is known by some and a secret to others, I am not out at work and my relationship with my parents is built on a fragile lie that I am not doing anything gay and will "fix" this problem. If you read my posts over the next couple of weeks you will of course find out more about all of this, and maybe you can liken some of it to your own personal experiences.
